creative writing, life, personal, suicide

Academic Suicide – Day Results Day

What do you do when you don’t get what you had expected or What you had prayed for five minutes before every exam or What you had prayed for five seconds before receiving your results? It is not an easy question, is it?

For normal average students, the solution is very simple. You mourn your results and move on with life in a couple of days, because let us face it – these results were what people expected anyway- no big deal. You move on with what you have got. These people tend to understand what other students do not- life is not all about the grades you get. For them, the best things in life are free so they- Smile. Laugh. And Love. They know that their self worth is not in their academic grades but in everything that they do as a person. Those who have a relationship with God know Romans 8:28 – All things work together for the good of those who love him, and who have been called according to his purpose. For these special, rare people – If it is not okay, then it is not the end.

Sadly not everyone see life through the eyes of the brave. You are the one doing the catwalk. It is the second time you are making this walk. The first time you completed it successfully, even though everyone expected you to stumble, tumble and fall. The crowd went wild. Fear from competition, shock and shear surprise were plastered on everyone’s faces. The applause went on for weeks even after the show was over. Now you are back there again. You are at the beginning of the catwalk. It is all the same, except… everyone expects you to make it-Even you expect it of yourself. But you don’t.

It takes all the courage you have to stand up from a fall when the whole world expected you to complete the catwalk successfully like you did before. But, how many of us have that much courage? For these people, perfection is all they have ever known. How are they supposed to know how to deal with imperfection if they have never had to deal with it before? Here, I am not referring to little children but people who are almost hitting twenty years in age. The only way they know how to live life is in perfection, in being the best, in being first place. They have never had to deal with failure. Nor do they have the capacity to deal with disappointment. And if that is the case, then – If it is not okay, it is the end. The only solution that they have learned about is suicide. How do they face the world the day after their dismal results? Because it is only a matter of time before even the person at the very back of the auditorium hears of the outcome of the catwalk. It is only too soon when they realized that all the people who used to be nice to them no longer even turning their heads for a greeting.

With daunting realization, standing there with the spotlight on “who you used to be” being drowned out by “who you are now”, you creep you eyes from being fixated on your feet to flicker through the crowd. It’s dark and it’s empty. Not a body in sight.  You turn away and almost miss the one granny- looking lady in the back giving you a round of applause. She is the one rose, among the myriads of rotten tomatoes and apples on the stage where you once stood. The curtains roll down on the stage called life.




poetry, Uncategorized

Dream Reality

Dream Reality
Billy, You can be anything you want to be.


Don’t be a silly Billy, Grow up! Without money you can never be free.
A politician, a lawyer, a teacher, a ballerina – your imagination is the key. Can you afford it? You cannot leave the hood. Since you’re in, to leave there will be a fee.
Education is the key- the key to success. You’re a mess

My name is Dream. My name is Reality.
I give you hope, I inspire. I tell it like it is. I leave you in despair.
I am a shining star of the future to come for all. I am a deep dark void causing giants to fall.
I get glory from any small achievement. I get glory from making you sorry for any disappointment.
My goal is to get your soul.
With it, I will change lives. With it, I will craft deadly knives.
With your hands we will heal, nurture and nurse. With your hands, we will seal with blood, a dark future, life without good verse.
I am nothing without you effort, without your desire, without your passion.
You Dream to forget Reality. With Reality you cannot Dream.
I cannot exist without Reality. I am of no use without a Dream.
We are one. Two sides of the same coin. The ying and the yang.
A dream fuels you to create a better reality. A reality fuels you to dream a bigger dream.
I cannot exist without you.

advice, Uncategorized

The Seven Deadly B’s

So the story goes.  Once  upon a time ( time, time, time), there was this girl . She went by the name Milly. So Milly grew up like all other little girls – laughing, playing with pink dolls who wore pink clothes and drank from little pink tea cups. She wore her hair in pigtails, sometimes she wore it down and, of course like every little girl she sometimes hated having her mom do her hair everyday, so sometimes she got it braided. If you looked at her, smiling in her white knee length socks that teased her frilly dress, you would assume she would have boy trouble one day – all the pretty girls always do. And that’s where you would be wrong. For in the woods, deep deep down, past the cabin, in her bedroom ever morning her mother would say before she left for school,

“Books Before Boys Because Boys Bring Babies”.

To which she would always smile sweetly and say,

” Yes, Ma’am ( she was a polite little girl), I won’t forget the seven B’s” .

She’d hurry to school before her mum began her stories of ” back in the day”.

But that is not where the story ends, for there is more. T’is the girl grows up. All the way to about eighteen or nineteen moons in age. For now this girl, who had never had friends who were guys suddenly found herself in another world. The fairytale slowly disappeared like the mist after a hot shower. Her Knee socks became ankle socks which would never reach her knee-length school skirts. Although her pigtails were long forgotten the seven B’s persisted. This was now the real world and the seven B’s did not apply in the Real world. Thus after wagering and waring with her inner mom’s voice she was faced with one of realities evident truths.

” I CAN HAVE GUY FRIENDS” She almost couldn’t believe it. Why hadn’t anyone told her this sooner?

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poem, poetry, rhyme, Uncategorized

A Beauty Certificate – Expiry date

Entering the world she was stamped with a beauty certificate

The terms and conditions read

“To be happy there is no need to gesticulate,

But only to be well bred”.


Now breeding does not come easy

Especially to the pure

And not to be cheesy

But for beauty – there is no cure


She was taught to smile, to sit upright

To say please, to say thank you

To lie, only when it was right

And most of all – never to be true


Her life was a whirlwind

Of autographs and pictures and the perfect smile of a mime

While a calm river was her mind

Of mathematical equations, laws and theories of time


To utter intelligence was shunned

For most were fickle

And the idea of “Brains and Beauty” did not tickle

And more often than not, it left them stunned


She was no more than her mask

Not a degree to her name (her mother would have no such thing)

Now Her beauty is slowly fading

Glory days are waning as she wonders where next to bask


More make up

Cover up

But what will she do when the wrinkle says “ Time’s up”?